Let's Get Going...

Where to start?  Where to start?  I have had this week off and I have been indulging myself with doing whatever I've wanted to do.  I have watched holiday movies, I have stayed up late and have slept in, catching up on a soap opera my family has watched since the 1960s (I feel close to my family when I watch it), I have puttered around the house... and now it is time to think about other things.  I have no one around to judge me for taking some "time out".  You know, it is a pleasure now to take care of myself without that continued judgements and comments. I wish "doing nothing" could go on.  It has been nice.  However, I know I will get bored, it is only good for a few days anyway.  I won't feel rested if I don't get somethings done so I am in the process this morning of writing a list with coffee in hand.

I have until Tuesday... that's when I go back to work.  My co-worker will have the week off.  I will work for 10 hours when I return.  I will also work 8 hours Wednesday, Thursday, and half of the day on Friday.  Then I will be off for a three 1/2 day weekend.  Hopefully, this will be a great jump start into 2012.

This week I have been home to mainly watch the boys.  They don't have daycare these days.  They get on a school bus by Kari and she is home later on in the day when they return.  She works the lunch shift at Red Robin.  I get home about 5 pm and we have dinner.  She has been going to classes at the the college at night and gets home around 9 pm.  It is then bedtime!  And then we do it all again.  But this week is different because of the two week vacation the boys have.  She is on break from college and she will be home the days I work next week.

Last night I was up.  The night is the worst with thoughts and images going around in my head. I fell asleep early but woke up and didn't go back to sleep for a long time. I expect this is normal for having experienced the abnormal.  After all, I am beginning all over again and it is a little strange.  I fight the "demons" in those quiet times.  However, it is becoming less and more thoughts are on thinking about the future.  One good thing is that I have my own traditions etc to fall back on.  But you know, I think I would like to add somethings new.  It's now the time.

So I am off... I will tell you what I come up with...